My Climb

Every valley shall be lifted up, and every mountain and hill be made low;
the uneven ground shall become level, and the rough places a plain.
~ Isaiah 40:4 ~

 

My climb over the last few years has been anything but uneventful.  I had to deal with loss, illness, lies, and betrayal.  Losing sight of the tremendous sprinklings of love, hope, and faithfulness right beside me.

I lost sight. I emphasize “I”.  I wasn’t able to see the top of the mountain.  There felt like there was no end to the climb.  How did I allow that to happen?   I ruminated on that question for a while.

Tiny glimpses of the past came twinkling to the forefront of my thoughts.  The first reminder I received was impactful.  I remembered being 29 with a two-month old and a two-year old and receiving a cancer diagnosis.

I was determined to fight with all my might.  Honestly, I cried for the first week thinking my babies would not have a mom.  Then, I mustered all the strength and courage that I learned from my parents.  I would survive.  I had too.

Well, that was a long time ago.  Twenty-four years to be exact.  Little did I know that the strength that I regained through that memory would save me three weeks ago.  During a routine cancer checkup, I got the news again.

I was babysitting not the greatest timing to receive such a message.  I always sing “Jesus, loves Me” to the little one before her nap.  I choked on emotion as I sang to her that day. She took my hand and nuzzled it against her until she fell asleep.

On my way home, I lost it.  Sobbing, I stopped at my parents grave to talk to them.  Not that they’re not with me everywhere I go, I just needed to sit with them.  There I sat on the wet summer ground,  sobbing as I talked to my Mommy and Daddy.

I took a deep breath. Pulled myself up. Drove home. I only just told the story to my family this past weekend.  I wasn’t going to share it with anyone.  It was the breaking point that I needed.  It was my reminder that I am me.  Me that will not succumb.

As soon as I walked in the door, my daughter handed me an anklet that I haven’t worn in a very long time. Please don’t be offended.  It is my “cancer sucks” anklet.  I placed it on my ankle that day and haven’t taken it off since.

The reason I’m sharing this with all of you is that I feel that I made my climb harder than it had to be.  God reminded me that I was stronger than I remembered.  I will make it to the top of my mountain.  It will be the best view ever.

The Climb
Hannah Montana
I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah)
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith Whoa a oh oh
Songwriters: Jon Mabe,Jessi Alexander
© Walt Disney Music Company
For non-commercial use only.
Data from: LyricFind

 

 

 

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